NEWS FLASH.

I made a new blog! :D
And I won't be posting on this blog ever again. EVER.

http://imnotachicken.blogspot.com/

28th of June, 2012.

Hey guys! I'm baack :D but I have my mood swing again *sigh*

I'm not that much of a happy person, thought I smile alot.

and let me complain about my miserable life for awhile.


All of the sudden you ignore me. I don't know if you noticed or anything, but really, it's like you're trying to be far away from me. If can, go to another galaxy. *sigh* It's really sad, I swear. Punya payah cari cordless phone, but then tak guna langsung. and now you're interested in some other person in other school.  Haih. I still get jealous and I still care about you. You know that, but you don't care.

I need to think positively ._. Haihhh.

What is wrong with me? Still in love with a girl that broke your heart sooo many times. But what can I do? My heart is just too stubborn to move on. FML.


I lost the book. I FUCKING HATE MYSELF NOW MAN FUCKUFCKUFCKCUFKCUFKUCKFU.  No, I don't feel sad when I read the book anymore. I feel happy, knowing that you once loved me in your life. *sigh*


I have this feeling to enter boarding school. Maybe after I graduate from it everything will turn back to normal. Normal life, normal friends. No more lover or wtv. Everything, just.. normal.

Annddd I'm back on trying to entertain you guys! ^^

No, I can't do it. Too sad.

Maybe this once, yeh.

As you can see here, we entered the PPDa competition at Dewan Rakan Muda or smt, Petaling Jaya. 8 schools entered, and all of 'em are SOOOO DAMN GOOD. However, surprisingly.. we won 2nd place ^^ They were really good, and we thought we didn't even get a number. Alhamdulillah :) I recorded the video, but I won't be putting on youtube, probably. Too lazy now :P I did post it in on facebook though, if you want to see it, find my name and add me, send me a message and hopefully I'll accept you ^^

That's is actually, nothing else to say.

By the way here's a random joke for the day!

"You know you're dating the wrong guy when your friend steals your boyfriend and all you can think is, What does she see in him?"


Not really a joke.. I guess? :\

PS: I still love you.

22nd of May, 2012.

I doubt that she doesn't like that guy anymore. Really. He's handsome and stuff. *sigh*

Hello and here I am again writing a blog post.

The reason I'm here is just to let my heart out. I'm a very emotional person. Yes.

I really want to make people happy, but me doing so will just make it vice versa. It's really saddening, you know. You want to make people happy, but you, yourself isn't happy. You'll just end up staring somewhere, thinking, What did I do for these past few years? Has it give anything to me? Has it give anything to anyone?
Maybe it's better if I move, you know. I bet I'm just a fuss in school, no one would probably care if I moved. Who the fuck would? I'm a fucking boring person who keeps staring and is always sad. Yeah, I can start a new life, and probably, move on.

I don't know what to do now. I really, don't know.

By the way, as I promised, here's the link to the video nasyid competition, I'm the 4th person from the left or the 2nd person from the right. Somehow it's cut into two videos, so I'll post two videos.

PART 1

PART 2

Enjoy and good bye.

12 of May, 2012.

Ohohoho, she was asleep yesterday, and her brother answered the phone. Aha, I knew it. She's never like that.


Sorry for my rudeness, Hello and here I am writing again on this blog.

The reason why I'm writing on this blog right now is I have another great news! :D

There's only one though. But atleast it's great, right?


As I told you guys earlier, I was the harmonizer in a nasyid group.
The competition was today, and we got the 2nd place. xD Ain't that great? Heh.


That's it actually.
I'll post the video soon, so be prepared! >:D

kbai.

Amirul, has returned.

Annyeong haseyoo! Ahh, here I am after a looooong break. I wouldn't really call it a break since it's just I can't use the computer. Meh. Why am I here all of the sudden you may ask. I'm here to tell you some news! Great news? Bad news? I'm not that sure myself.

Well something did happen today though. She smiled less than a few days before :\ Did I do something wrong or is there something wrong? Hurgh. and when I called her just now she go like "*clicking noises* *hangs up*" Called her again, same thing. When I called her for the last time, she sent the busy tone ._. Maybe it's because I disturbed her studying. But yesterday was fine. Okay let's cut to the chase.


The first one is.. she doesn't like that guy anymore! Yayyyyy :D But maybe she still like him but she's hiding it. but my relationship with her is just friends. FRIENDS. Hmph.

I felt special until you treated everyone the same as me.

I really thought she liked me a 'little'. GIVE ME SOME HOPE GODDAMNIT. Soo hard for me to get over her. That moment when you are trying your best to get over her, but then you end up falling for her even more. THAT SUCKS MANNNN.

Okay okay, numbah two. I'm actually the harmonizer in a nasyid group :P


That wasn't really important now was it?


That's all I guess. And now time for some random rumbling.


I really miss talking to Amirah and the gang. Somehow it's really hard to talk to them. Idk, it feels... weird.

I really am trying my best to talk to them, somehow I end up looking at them, with a smile on my face, and I walk away. HAHAHA Amirul.


They always said, "I think she doesn't really fit with him." "You deserve her." Let me tell you one thing, okay? Love, there's no barriers. Whatever what they say, if they really love each other, nothing can stop it. 

Also, what kept me from not writing in the blog is the VN called Katawa Shoujo or translated from Japanese "Disabled Girls". Ikr? hahaha. It's like a dating sim. Really fun, not some lifeless game I hope. Don't laugh at it yet. Btw here's the synopsis if you're interested and link too.


"Tells a story of a young man and five young women living with varying disabilities. The majority of the story takes place at the fictional Yamaku High School for disabled children, located somewhere in modern Japan. Hisao Nakai, a normal boy, has his life turned upside down when a long-dormant cardiac dysrhythmia forces him to transfer to a new school after a long hospitalization. Despite his difficulties, Hisao is able to find friends, and perhaps love."

                                                                                        Picked from wikipedia.

If you reaaally want to play this game, go google katawa shoujo or the LMGTFY.
Hehe, that's really the end of the blog for today. I have no mood swings anymore atleast :D. kbai.


Until we meet again!

I really love you. You changed my life. Literally. How I approach people is totally different from before.
Thank you. Very much.  

REGRETS.

It's 31st of March, 2012, been almost a month and a half after we clashed. I was just too sad. Couldn't accept it was really happening. I feel like killing myself. I fucking hate myself. I was too hurt that I really can't feel pain. Who should I love now? How can I ever forget you? I pitied looking at you being sad, so I decided to ask for an apology and asked whether we could be together again. She said No, I like someone else. THAT MOMENT. My heart was torn to bits. I couldn't do anything. It's just her heart. I know that she wants to be with him forever and she has been very looking forward to spend time with her. I guess he's her partner in crime now. I understand. Her generosity, beauty, sympathy, bravery, kindness, modesty, intelligence, patience... are just something I can never forget. I kept on crying everyday, thinking about her. I just can't stop reading her blog. I really hated it when she wrote "I guess this is the end of the blog." I can't believe that it's the end. But then, it is. I'm really trying my best to forget her. It's just that everything reminds me of her. I guess this IS the end of our love story.


What I have learnt while I was with her :

1. Try to make her smile all the time
2. Never like someone else. Because actually your heart loves her.
3. Never mention another guys name, especially her admirer.
4. Never get bored talking to her.
5. Never tease her fat or anything. Even if it's a joke.
6. Never stop saying I love you.
7. Always praise her beautiful.
8. ALWAYS accept her for who she is.
9. Never let anyone go too close to her. (the same thing might happen to me)
10. Do everything sincerely.
11. Gift her anything SINCERELY.
12. Never LIE.
13. Always keep her accompanied.
14. Never scold her for not being perfect.
15. Always compliment her.
16. If she wants to call you sweet names, let her.
17. NEVER EVER EVER EVER EVER BREAK HER HEART.



I think that's it. Maybe I will never update this blog anymore, so you guys don't have to visit it. and to her, if you are reading this, I just want to tell you that almost all my tweets are for you.


That is all I guess.
Good bye.

Au revoir, my love friend.
*salutes*

2nd of March, 2012.

It has been 1 year and 21 days since we were together. 5 days since we broke up. She has feelings for another guy. Therefore I have nothing else to talk about. Sorry guys. If I have the mood, I will update again. InsyaAllah. Ya Allah, tolonglah ringankan ujianmu ini. Tolonglah lembutkan hatinya untuk kembali kepadaku. Amin YaRobbalAlamin.